What finals do to me...

Warning- this is not in any way a representation of normal or average law students. More than likely this is just my particular reaction to finals.

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I've realized that finals changes me...as a person.

For one- I become disgusting.

Since free time is spent studying, and I'm not going to class....I realized it has been a week since I've put on a pair of jeans.  Actually, I've worn the same sweat pants for days....and usually the same shirt for multiple days as well.

If I'm not going anywhere....where is the motivation?

I often go out in public (to a final, or the store) without an important piece of undergarments to hold the "girls" up. Why? Well if I am wearing what I slept in...it just doesn't become that important with a baggy sweatshirt.

In addition, no shave November....becomes no shave December. It all sort of runs together.

Secondly- I look silly

I become the girl that wears sweatpants with boots. Not because its cute, but because its snowy, I'm still wearing this week's sweatpants, and that is the thing I grab. I know I don't look trendy

Some days, I wake up and don't even look in a mirror.  I only re-do my hair if it is falling in my face.

It may only take a minute, but this is not about saving time, its about a total lack of caring about anything but getting through the week.

Third- My photos

You know that antsy feeling you get after  you've been sitting too long. Well that often turns into sending Kevin photos of me, making completely awful/weird faces...just to feel like I'm having some personal contact. Plus you're living in that constant mental state of 3am giggles. (you know, when you're sitting around at 3 am....and everything becomes funny all of a sudden)

Fourth- Eating Habits

There is no such thing as meals. When I'm bored, I eat...when I study, I eat. Finals is probably the absolute worst time for my body.

Not to mention I sleep next to my laptop, so some mornings it takes quite a while to actually get me out of bed.

Fifth- I reconsider

Finals gives me plenty of time to reconsider what I've done all semester....how I've spent my time...and how I could have known this all better. How I should have paid more attention, participated more in study groups...or how I should have dropped out last fall.

Sixth- Relief and Despair

I cannot begin to describe the realization and relief to know you are done with a class.

The only problem is...realizing you will have to study all of it...all over again...for the BAR exam. If the curved grades, essay tests, and 100% of your grade depending on a 3 hour final wasn't enough....just throw in the fact that you will be tested over this again in a couple years.

Oh and if you don't pass...it will all be for nothing.

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Finals Update: 2 down, 2 more to go.
T-minus 5 days until its over